Ive spent a couple weeks daydreaming of a brighter future..
Right in the midst of a time I am pressing myself to be vigilant on focusing on my future. Focusing all of my energy on bringing to me the signs and means to move in the directions the universe wants me to move in and trusting that she has a plan for me.
I just went through a pretty long stretch of being down and unmotivated, trapped in the cycle of doing for others and exerting my energy on all of the wrong efforts. I dont know what hit me or when exactly I snapped out of it, but it hit me.
“What are you doing!?”
You’re willing to work THIS hard for not even half of the reward and miss out on SO MUCH LIVING for someone else, but you say you don’t want your own business because of the extra work???
Then I asked myself WHY??
Its the validation. Its the recognition. It’s the ego stroke you get when someone tells you you’re the hardest worker they know, or that no one does it better… but really, what they mean is “Im glad I’ve got you on my team, you make my life easier” – “You make me a lot of money, I hope you stick around”.
BUT
Why do we need validation from someone “higher up” to make us feel accepted?? Why tf don’t I work this hard for ME and use my same hard working mindset to exhaust myself each day to work for ME? To make ME and Mine a future?…
I’ve had what it takes the whole time…
I just didn’t want to apply it because then, its all on me, all for me… and what if I fail? What if I get tired and want to give up?….
I do all of that shit now. We all do. So the truthful answer is, THERE IS NO EXCUSE.
Im just afraid to fail and that will be mine too… MY failure.
I’ve sat in plenty of failure.
No sweat.
Failure I can handle.
Its the plunge ill have to work up to. Because Im hard on myself… Im hard on myself and I have a hard time seeing what I AM instead of what I’ve been made to feel like I am.
I’m probably my own worst enemy (at least in that sense..)
So back to MINDSET….
